Dear Guitar:
I love you so much. Don't ever leave me.
<3 Ashley
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Dear J:
Why'd you come back to me? I just barely accepted it and you're already back. I don't know what to do.
Ashley
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Dear Guitar:
I love you so much. Don't ever leave me.
<3 Ashley
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Dear J:
Why'd you come back to me? I just barely accepted it and you're already back. I don't know what to do.
Ashley
Dear you whoever you are I have bad news.
Your knight in shining armour actually is in his sixties, has a bad heart and two new hips. Hasn't opened a new club or travelled the world solving political crises. In fact he's been married to the same long suffering wife for the past 40 years! I hope you are also living in a fantasy world so this wont be too much of a shock. If it's any comfort - you're not the first, just the most recent.
Dear brother,
Please accept my apology for the rude comment I made when you said you were trying to be indispensable at both your full-time and part-time jobs. I told you I thought it was more important for you to be doing the right work and being indispensable sounded to me like an excuse for you to never be home. Having been unemployed now for several weeks I realize what an insensitive comment that was. I am sorry.
Thank you,
Elyse
Dear God,
So many of my PT friends have difficult situations going on -- health issues, unemployment, family issues and other kinds of problems. You know them better than I do. Please bless all of my PT friends and their families. Please give them health and strength, relief from pain, and help them find the work they need. Thank You for my PT friends, God. They have been such a blessing to me. (And God, thank You for this sunny, warm day today too!) AMEN
Thank You,
Elyse
Dear self,
I need to stop saying I hate people, I think it's just me. I'm blind sighted to the good things about everyone. I need to stop SEARCHING for bad things in people that make me hate them. I need to learn how stop searching for bad things in good people and start looking for bad things in bad people. I am not convinced there are no people I should hate, there a several exceptions to that.
Thanks,
me.
Dear heart,
You're hurting, and I know that. There's nothing I can do to make you not hurt but wait. Time heals all wounds, right? Its time to move on from Dan. I know, I know, we say this about once a week, but its time you face the reality. It will never be anything with Dan. Move on, beautiful, he's just not that into you.
-Me
Dear Illness,
Everyday you try to run my life.With your making me think things that aren't true and turning my moods form happy to sad at the drop of a hat.I hate you and you have cost me alot but I am still determened to controll you.
Fighting with all my might,
Me
Dear PT family,
Unfortunately I will not be online much at all for the next week or two. My hard drive crashed on my laptop, leaving my only connection with the online word through my mum's computer or my old laptop. I will pop in whenever I can, but without the convenience of my main laptop, I doubt it will be very often.
Hope to see you all again soon enough!
-Courtney
On that note....
Dear Hard Drive,
WHHHHYYYY? D:
Sincerely,
A laptop-deprived computer addict.
Dear sibling,
Shut off the freakin Spongebob! 4 solid hours of it is driving me mad!
Your loving sister
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My bigger self,
Quit being such a chunkybutt and go do something! You are constantly complaining about all the weight you gained back and how your dog show clothes don't fit. Is it really that hard to actually do something about it? You lost 70lbs two years ago! 70 lbs in 6 mos!!! What is so freakin different now?!?! You use to run...all the frickin time. Now you can't run anymore than a block away. Go take those dang dogs hiking everyday! Not only when the weather is nice. OH YEAH! I know that little burger place down by the river is really good, but please resist!
My thinner self
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Dear Heart,
Please, get over him. Why can't you see that he'll never care? I don't want you to break anymore...
-Erin
Dear Migraines, again...
Even after my dr. appointments last Thursday, you're still hanging around. New medications aren't even helping! They're just causing horrid insomnia. And of course all the dr's want to do is run test after test... but not MRI's or anything, just blood tests and the like.
Migraine migraine, go away. Don't come again some other day.
Crystal
Dear God,
I really want to go on two vacations this summer - one with my family, and one with my youth group. Please, allow it to happen, without me losing my job. I can't decide between the two, but I'm afraid to tell work that I need two weeks off in the summer. Blarghhhh.
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Dear work,
what is up with the 8-5 TRAINING days? seriously... training for a dept store, I know I know, brand new store and grand opening, and stuff, but 8 hour days?? FOR WHAT? good golly miss molly.
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Dear Matthew,
I love you, and we don't need Valentine's Day to show our love. We can just bicker and argue, and come back together to know we care ;)
Oh what a great day Valentine's Day was.. haha
Dear You-Know-Who:
Why did you e-mail me a copy of an airline e-ticket for a trip with your girls' group? Did you think I would be happy for you? I'm really not. You knew full well I just started a new job and won't be able to get any paid time off until at least mid-June. You have gone on other weekend trips with this group; I've met some of them and even gone with you to a fund-raiser for their children's schools; and yet I have never been invited to even a board game night, even though other "friends of friends" have joined the group since I've known you. I'm actually a little ticked off. You say I'm your heart friend and like the sister you never had, yet our friendship has gotten quite one-dimensional. I wish I could un-invite you from coming to my niece's concert, but that's not an option. I am really hurt. And by the way, I think your decision to stop seeing your therapist on their suggestion was not a good one.
Impulsively,
Elyse
Dear God,
Could You please help me find another friend or two?
Thank You,
Elyse
Dear Self,
Please get motivated to get the things done that you need to do!
Thanks,
Me
Dear Mother Nature,
I wish you weren't so evil! Why do bad things happen to happy healthy puppies?!?!
,Upset Dog Owner
Dear serotonin and norepinephrine:
Why are you out of balance in my brain?! I am tired of feeling depressed and crying, tired of these annoying SNRI dreams, and downright fed up with feeling drugged from the trazodone. I watch a funny sitcom, feel better for half an hour afterward and then go back to feeling lousy. I just want be normal again. Get out of those neurons and start floating around in my CSF already.
Elyse
Dear B,
I can't believe I feel so strongly for you already. Please don't break my heart.
-A
Dear bank,
Quit jerking me around. I know it says in the fine print you can charge me any fee you deem necicary but manipulating dates to cause overdrafts is so not nice.
I wish you could find a way to pay your wages without stiffing other people
Angrily
~me
Dan,
Here we go, one more letter to you.
I love you. You know that. I think deep down, you love me a little too. You've been ignoring me for the past two days... Let's explain...
We partied two nights in a row. Saturday night, you came over, we both got drunk (albeit, it doesn't take me much) and we were all over each other. You were putting your arm around my waist, I was hanging all over you, and for the first time in a long time, we laughed and smiled and were incredibly happy. Your hands would drift, mine would drift, we ended up cuddling on Kate's bed... man, we were happy.
Kate got drunk and was sick, so her ex came over to take care of her. You told me to come home with you. I was ecstatic, so I agreed. As soon as I hit the cold air outside, though, I was done. Beyond tired, I nearly fell asleep on the 45 min drive to your house. (And yes, you were sober enough by that time to drive, no worries.)
We got to your house. You set out your rule (no clothing in bed... it's happened before) and I obliged. We cuddled, and eventually both fell asleep. But during that time, we were SO happy. So happy.
The next night, you came over crabby. Then some other guys we knew came over, and you got possessive. I got drunk, you didn't because you had to work the next day. You texted me angrily saying if I was going to start acting stupid and taking my clothes off (which has happened before... =/) you were going to leave. I begged you not to, I was fine, I had no intentions of taking my clothes off, yet you got mad and left anyway. I stood in front of the door and begged you not to go -- I wanted the Dan back that I had had the night before. I grabbed your jacket to turn you towards me, and with clenched teeth, you said, "Get the f*** off me. Knock it off. I'm f***ing leaving."
And you left. And I cried.
I bawled, for what Kate told me was a good half hour. You were SO mad over something I DIDN'T do... You looked like you would have hit me had you not had enough self control. You yelled at Kate for "corrupting" me. I texted you later after I had cried it all out, and you apologized, but have been cold to me ever since.
What did I do?
I love you, and I can't do this with you anymore. You don't like me hanging out with certain guys. You've got jealousy issues and pretty big insecurities. But every time I try to get close, you give me the cold shoulder. What do you want from me?
We shouldn't have to be drunk to love each other the way we did. And yes, I'm sure it was love. You were holding me, dancing with me, spinning me in circles, kissing my cheek. I cried that night too, although I don't remember why. You kept wiping my tears, asking me why I was crying. You truly cared about me that night, and you were much more sober than I was.
Again, alcohol shouldn't make us love each other. But you know what? I don't care. For that one night, we were in love, we were infinite, and we were so happy. If that's what it takes, I'll do it. I know its pathetic, but to feel the real Dan like that... it's so worth it. That's what you mean to me.
Maybe you'll text me soon. I'm not going to be the first to text you. If you want me, you have to come to me. I'm done coming to you. But please just text me...
-Loves Meg.
Kind of like me, you two! I have no friends outside of the internet. I barely go out -- my best friends are my family, my dogster friends & my pet talk friends, Lady, overall -- is my bestest friend though.
I'm not depressed about anything.
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Dear Oreo.. and Jubilee.
I cry every night if I even think of you. I just wanna lay in bed and think about you two all night. I miss both of you. Oreo. You were my second dog -- and a personal favorite -- no one can replace you. And you couldn't replace Jubilee -- and she couldn't replace you. No one could replace anyone.
I love you two..and I just wanted to hold you two in my arms and hug you tight one last time... but no.
Sad,
me. :(
Meg - it sounds like all this crap happens when booze is involved.
Heck, do you need a Dan Anonymous too? ;)
I think you need to s*** or get off the pot. You mentioned therapy. Try it for a month.
None of this is Dan's fault - you are sticking around him and it happens.
Give it up and move on.
Ooohh..awesomely harsh.
:D Just kidding.
I kind of agree with Catty1 -- you've been sending letters to Dan forever, and others, too -- and in every letter it seems like it involves heartbreaking or drama. You're really nice and I've been reading your letters and I will probably continue to -- but if Dan treats you bad, then why do you stick around? Leave him.
Dear second job,
I'm ready to leave you! I said I'd take ONE more shift a week.. instead I got four shifts total. This means I work 15 hour days four times a week, and the one night a week I get to myself, is actually spent driving to agility an hour outside the city. I asked for variation in my shifts.. instead you gave me training shifts in the same place.. so now I get to stay even longer to train someone. F*** YOU!
With love,
Ashley
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Dear B,
I can't wait to see you tonight. :)
Ashley
Dear PT,
If I had the balls to leave, I would.
We have good times, tons of good times. Talking for hours, watching movies, playing video games... I tend to write about the bad times, I know. I just can't let go of someone I care so much about, regardless of how he treats me on his bad days. He's lost all of his friends because of things that have happened in the past... He needs someone.
-Meg
Things that he has done in the past, you mean?Quote:
He's lost all of his friends because of things that have happened in the past... He needs someone.
This isn't love at all...it's pity. You wanna be a hero?
This is about your ego and not about Dan at all.
JMHO
How can you say its my ego? I don't even have an ego. It is about Dan. It's about me caring too much and him not enough.
I say it's your ego because you would rather be needed than wanted.
You want to be good and important enough that you will make him love you more.
That is ego.
And it's also repeating the same fight you have with your dad.
You're not gonna win with this one, hon.
If Dan was wonderful and really loved you and you "won" - the challenge would be gone and the joy would fade out pretty quickly.
Until you find another "challenge" to get the adrenaline going again.
It's called the "thrill of the kill". You get hooked on the trying to win. It's very addictive - and many people, especially women, get hooked.
Have a look and see if trying to get your dad's attention doesn't kinda feel the same way....
I don't try and get my dads attention. I've given up on that. Its over, its done, I lost. He's got his wife, she's completely turned him around, and is trying to brainwash the rest of the family.
As far as dan, its not a game. I know you won't believe me, regardless of what I say. Dan is the first person I've cared about this deeply in a long time. I'm not going to deny that part of it is about being needed, but I really do love him. If he "caved" and decided he loved me, I would be so happy. I'm trying to get over dan, but its easier said than done.
I respect your opinion, but I need to do what I feel is right.
Dear I lovemyAbbygirl,
I know you don't know me, but I have read your posts with sadness. I hope you'll take this as it is meant to be, in no way is it a criticism, but I just have to comment on one thing you wrote.
Alcohol is not the answer. A relationship built on the affects of alcohol is doomed from the start. Alcohol doesn't bring out the real person. Please just be very careful. This seems like a very dangerous type of relationship, especially emotionally. I really hope you do find happiness and that you will continue to share your feelings with us. Maybe you could go back through this thread and read your previous posts taking note of how often you've posted very similiar sounding events and your feelings and your resolves after each of those. Sadly it does sound like a vicious cycle. You are worth more than that and deserve better.Quote:
Again, alcohol shouldn't make us love each other. But you know what? I don't care. For that one night, we were in love, we were infinite, and we were so happy. If that's what it takes, I'll do it. I know its pathetic, but to feel the real Dan like that... it's so worth it. That's what you mean to me.
Sincerely,
Moe
Dear Impending Snowstorm,
Could you just disappear? Don't come my way, don't go another way and don't go back the way you came. I have plans this weekend and if you show up, you'll be interfering.
Go away!
Elyse
Trade with me lvpets2002. Please please trade with me. I WANT SUN, AND SUMMER!!!:confused:
Yeah, no resentment there, huh?Quote:
He's got his wife, she's completely turned him around, and is trying to brainwash the rest of the family.
You're still trying to 'win' this very battle with every guy you want. How about Butch, who you loved cause he was the dad you lost?
Practice dating boring guys for a while.
And PLEASE read "Women Who Love Too Much" by Robyn Norwood. Old book, but a classic on the subject.
Did Dan give you clear permission to 'help' and 'fix' him? No? Then it's ego, nothing more.
Moesha was right. Just click on your user name here, click on Statistics, and click on find all threads and/or posts by.
And just read through them.
No one else here will know but you.
Dan's not going to get rid of you because he can always get some, even if that is only attention. :rolleyes:
Dear Me,
Stop dating jack@sses.
Kthx.