Today I have to put my best friend to sleep...
http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/smudgie.jpg
He was 4 months old here..
I know the picture is blurry, but it's my favorite one, and it's in a crystal frame..
His name is Evinrude Smudge, Smudgie for short... He is 10 and his bowel and bladder have given out...
So in ten minutes I'll be calling the vet to make an appointment for this afternoon... I've cut off a bit of his fur, and am going to do a Rainbow Bridge Memorial to him and have it mounted on particleboard.
I hardly slept last night, and my eyes are so sore from crying... who knew tear ducts don't dry out?
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Today is going to be a very rough day... Please let me hold your virtual hands...
Bye Smudge...Rest in Peace
You are doing the right thing. It is a difficult decision, to say the least, but a kind decision for sure.
I will think of you today.... I have done the same with three cats so far and each time it makes more sense to me, but it doesn't get any easier on me.
Bless you and your kitty.
He's gone... and he knew...
... Dad drove the long way and he was looking out the window at the fields and the geese.. He twisted around and put his head in the crook of my arm and just laid there... I told him over and over that I loved him and that I hope he forgives me...
Do you think he does?
Here's some shots I took this morning about 1/2 before we went for that long walk...
http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/050702-1.jpg http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/050702-2.jpg http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/050702-3.jpg http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/050702-4.jpg http://216.40.249.40/~golden/personal/050702-5.jpg
Re: He's gone... and he knew...
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Originally posted by L-A.
... told him over and over that I loved him and that I hope he forgives me... Do you think he does?...
I believe he not only forgives you but thanks you for the release from pain. Forgive yourself now.
He looks so precious and loving. Do let us know when your tribute is up. I'd like to learn more about him.
Re: He's gone... and he knew...
Quote:
Originally posted by L-A.
... Dad drove the long way and he was looking out the window at the fields and the geese.. He twisted around and put his head in the crook of my arm and just laid there... I told him over and over that I loved him and that I hope he forgives me...
Do you think he does?
Yes, (I did exactly the same thing with my dog...) Smudgie for sure isn't mad for you doing this, don't think that! He knows that you loved him very much and he is grateful for the wonderful time you shared with him, the joy your brought for him, the good life your provided him. How can he hate you? He knows too that he was ill, and that it was his time. Animals also realise when it's their time to go. By what you told, he had a wonderful last day and last moments with you, he will always remember you with warmth, and he is watching you now from the Rainbow Bridge.
Take good care of yourself now and allow yourself to grief. If you feel like it, let us know how you are doing, ok? We know here at PT how you feel, and we are here for you, always.
Niina
PS. Gorgeous pics!