I hope it is OK to post this
I have had Ulcerative Colitis for 33 years. I was always told if I got regular screenings every 1 to 2 years, if they ever found cancer it would be small and could be removed and I would be OK.
After being brushed off for months in my hometown, I went to a large city. Day before yesterday they found cancer and it is big. I have to have my whole colon removed and always wear a bag. Plus cancer and a two hour drive while sick.
My cats feet keep swelling up for no reason. My son is coming home to take him to the vet's. They give him a cortisone shot and he gets better but the shot can make him diabetic at any time. Because he is a slasher at the vet's they said he would not be able to do the required bloodwork and would need to be put to sleep if he became diabetic.
I am in shock over the cancer. I have no family except my son with whom I live and a daughter as far frome here as she could get. I am sitting here alone waiting for the surgeons to call. I have been awake all night. I don't think I will ever sleep again.
I don't feel loving towards my cat. Every time he sees me he just meows for food. He does not cuddle much. I don't know what I am doing . I am having hallucinations from no sleep. The fireplace logs are pink and green and jumping up and down.
I feel terrible that my poor cat seems annoying. I would never hurt him.