ILoveMyAbbyGirl
09-24-2005, 04:37 PM
Mom had a breakdown today. We were sitting there watching TV and she got up and said, "I have to go somewhere and do something, I'll be right back." Okay... I was like, "What are you doing?" and she just said, "There's just something I need to do," and she left.
Soo... we sit at home (Jakey and I) for an hour or so, and she comes home. She's messing around in the kitchen, washing the patio doors so we can put up the cling-on thingies, and every so often I hear, "*sniff* *sniff*" and naturally, I assume that she's been crying. I don't say anything, but just keep watching TV thinking she doesn't want to talk about it.
She comes and stands by the stairs and she goes, "Can you just hug me?" and she started SOBBING. She was mumbling things such as, "I'm sorry I'm such a bad mom," and, "I'm so sorry you have to see me like this," but the one that got me the most was, "I'm sorry I'm such a bad mom, and I'm sorry you have to see my depression like this but I just want to be a normal person. I don't want to have to take pills to be normal."
*sigh*
I felt so sad, I started to tear up a little, and just kept hugging her as she cried. I didn't know what else to do. Things started to piece together a little bit. She broke down and told me how she really felt. She doesn't like being a depressive, and I think a lot of what happens between us is because of it. I really loved her right then and I felt so bad for her. She wants to be a normal mom sooo bad but this cronic depression sh!t is tearing her apart.
*sigh* Poor mom. :( What do I do? Do I forget what's happened in the past? Do I have this reason to feel closer to her? Should I take this all as an act? What do I do?
Soo... we sit at home (Jakey and I) for an hour or so, and she comes home. She's messing around in the kitchen, washing the patio doors so we can put up the cling-on thingies, and every so often I hear, "*sniff* *sniff*" and naturally, I assume that she's been crying. I don't say anything, but just keep watching TV thinking she doesn't want to talk about it.
She comes and stands by the stairs and she goes, "Can you just hug me?" and she started SOBBING. She was mumbling things such as, "I'm sorry I'm such a bad mom," and, "I'm so sorry you have to see me like this," but the one that got me the most was, "I'm sorry I'm such a bad mom, and I'm sorry you have to see my depression like this but I just want to be a normal person. I don't want to have to take pills to be normal."
*sigh*
I felt so sad, I started to tear up a little, and just kept hugging her as she cried. I didn't know what else to do. Things started to piece together a little bit. She broke down and told me how she really felt. She doesn't like being a depressive, and I think a lot of what happens between us is because of it. I really loved her right then and I felt so bad for her. She wants to be a normal mom sooo bad but this cronic depression sh!t is tearing her apart.
*sigh* Poor mom. :( What do I do? Do I forget what's happened in the past? Do I have this reason to feel closer to her? Should I take this all as an act? What do I do?