One Month...

[anna_66]

Well, as of today it's been a month since our big boy
Angus went to the bridge.
Needless to say it's been hard on Mark and I, but also
very hard on both of the girls.
It seems like over the last month so many things have
come up that make cry when I thought I was starting to
deal with his death.
Things like getting his ashes back. What a hard day that
was. Then we got our pictures back that we had taken
about 3 weeks before he died. Another hard day. Then
there was the day that I put all of his stuff away, the first
time I had to fill my pill bottle and not fill his too, then there
was the first really hard night I had at work and wanted to
come home to Mark, him and the girls...but he wasn't here:(

Then there was the first time I had to buy treats (I always
tried to get the ones that had 3 in a pack). And another
really hard time was the first time my niece came over and
was looking for him. She's only a little over a year, but she
was actually looking for him. So I showed her some pictures
and she got soooo excited. She loved that boy and I'm sad
that she won't be able to have him as a part of her life.
There are just so, so, so many things that bring him to my
thoughts.
More than I could have ever imagined. I just miss
his presence in our home, it's just not the same around
here and will never be the same. He was more than a
dog...he was our son.

Robin was here on Sunday and we were going through
his pictures. I'm glad that I took so many. It hurts to look
at them, but in a way it also makes me happy. He was the
best dog a person could ever have. I love the girls very
much, but the love him, Mark & I shared was different.
He was our true heart dog.
Sometimes I just wish I could come home and he would
be here to greet me. But I know that will never happen.

I've decided to take Robin's advice and share some of
my favorite pictures of him & some of him with his best
friends.

This is him and his big sis Keisha
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p13caaf4413f7ab14f85156ed366b577a/fcbf8125.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid71/p93de6ade020a5b583e3dbb083db165cb/fb8bd434.jpg

And then of course Keisha went to the bridge and
he was so lonely. But not for long...he got a new
husky sister to play with:)
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/pe9e407e392c3c309004f9ce0b733f335/fcbd993b.jpg
He really loved that little fart!
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p6f3ad52d4ff6de61e3c5b692d7fbe0d9/fcbd98ea.jpg
They were best friends
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p823331948a8358d2dd630b1517f8e11c/fcbd9543.jpg

more in the next post...

[anna_66]

Then along came this little scaredy cat dog.
He wasn't too sure about her in the beginning
and she definately wasn't sure about him. His
bark scared her for a very long time. But finally
they got to be good friends.
Huney loved her big brother.
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p4b93debd3185cb316c53ab875b16d50f/fcbf8ed1.jpg
And she was so happy when he was able to
come home from the hospital the first time.
Just look at that face!
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid124/p5e0761fc4c83365a70b0e7550179e4e6/f81b5215.jpg
Of course they all got along so wonderfully
(that's why I nicknamed them "My Wonderful Dogs!").
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid49/p41bc990ec74fdc8de6ac6eb18a35cfdb/fcb4f054.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid77/pdfe2dfb02cd7f9ddbe61ec97889a90ad/fb3ca18e.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid63/p8d215e281c2c8c923ba43cee7161f294/fc0aa809.jpg

more to come...

[anna_66]

There are so many awesome pictures of him,
if I shared all my favorites we would be here all day!
So I will just share a few.

Here's our little puppy boy
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p5c6d2caaae0ab5a069ad93dbd6c246c5/fcbfa34e.jpg
A little bit older but so innocent looking
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p1e791b7f1b75bf05f3fb7089de178d94/fcbfa3a5.jpg
The big smiles that melt my heart
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/p9f068a740db9a6d7e8264e3c8609747c/fcbfa18c.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/padc46f66c0a0fee30b7f578667ef907f/fcbfa187.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid60/pc6d3a7c7dc9c079f432535c9313d29a0/fc48c589.jpg

a few more to come...

[anna_66]

And then here are just some pictures that show
what a totally stunning boy he is/was...
He had the most gorgeous brown eyes ever
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid142/p2626963777fdce9e5ba9924f389dfa02/f6bfadd8.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid142/p7a1b7a20ef8c2b87a2b5d928d61dc378/f6bfadba.jpg
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid142/p2328485a576ed02081e67f676b57321a/f6bfaddc.jpg
He was just magnificent!
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid142/pba86240b7c65ab842b7d2cf309d6f237/f6bfadcc.jpg

Big boy, I hope your looking back at us and
miss us as much as we miss you.
Love mommy, daddy, Roxey and Huney XOXOXO
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid142/p23affdead043074b4590d69186980989/f6bfadc1.jpg

[pitc9]

Oh Anna, those were the most wonderful pictures!!

You are lucky to have so many pictures of him with all of his best buddies!! He had a wonderful, long, life filled with love!
He was lucky to have two you!!

Yes Anna... he is watching over you all, and he loves you and misses you all just as much as you do him!!!

[PJ's Mom]

Oh how hard this must be for you. I can't imagine. :(


Angus was the first PT doggie I fell in love with. There will never be another like him. Thank you so much for sharing his pictures with us.

[Canis Amicus]

Hello Anna,
This thread goes deep in my heart. Angus was the very first dog I fell in love when I came to find this forum.

He was really magnificent. Your words and photos brought tears to my eyes.

And this afternoon, during Rex training, I don't know why, but I recalled your thread with the family photos. I came home, opened my computer at PT and here is your thread.

You and your family are in my prayers.

Rosana
and
Rex

[cloverfdx]

Anna what beautiful photos and such a lovely rememberance. Of course Angus is watching over you, Mark and the girls and misses you too.

{{Hugs}}

[bsherman]

Dear Anna, my heart goes out to you, I know the loss. I wouldn't go on about my loss because they are never the same, but I do feel for you. I have tears remembering my hansome old boy. Its been 13 years and I still see him in my dreams. Remember the great times and know he's watching from Rainbow Bridge.

[talia22]

Anna he is soo amazing! i am so sad for u i cannot even imagine what it would be like to lose one of my babies!! I LOVE the pics and please feel free to send more i couldnt get sick of seeing your kids.. i love the action shots of Angus and Roxey they are soo cute! my favorite is the one with Angus on his back playing with Rox.

[Logan]

http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid48/pe9e407e392c3c309004f9ce0b733f335/fcbd993b.jpg

Anna, many of these pictures are new to me, but the one I picked is terrific! What a fun loving pair they were!!! :)

You know, we all miss Angus, just knowing he is gone, even if many of us never had the pleasure of meeting him in person. What makes me most happy is that many Pet Talkers did get to meet him and love him for all of us.

I think we are all special, animal loving people, but you and Mark are the epitomy of loving, caring pet owners, and we all feel as if we have come to know you through your wonderful pictures and stories of your "kids". What a special relationship and bond we all feel with you!!! :)

Love you.
Logan

[LorraineO]

My fav pic is of him and the lil teddy bear.... melts ones heart....

He hasnt left you,,, you cant see him or feel him,, but he is there with you, sitting at your feet and by your bed at night,,, always remember although they all leave us physically,, they never leave our hearts!

[dukedogsmom]

I can't read what everyone wrote right now. Am at work and currently ruining my makeup that I hardly ever wear. I'll post some pics and comments tonight when I get home.

[Cinder & Smoke]

.
Anna, Mark, Roxey & Huney ~

Big {{{HUGS}}}

/s/ Phred

[ramanth]

*HUGS*

What wonderful pictures. We miss you Angus. :(

[BCBlondie]

I can't even imagine how hard it must be for you...

Those pictures of him are so precious. He sounds like he was a wonderful dog, and he will definitely be missed. :(

He might not be there physically, but I know he's there in spirit and in your hearts.

Thank you for sharing those precious memories of him with us.

[Cincy'sMom]

What a wonderful tribute to dear Angus. He truly was a special dog and you have captured him perfectly.

[momoffuzzyfaces]

Aw, I know what a hole is in your life right now.
Every day, I ask God to give all the Pet Talk pets lots of hugs, cuddles, and kisses. I always mention Angus by name along with several others that were dear to me too.

I always make a scrap book for my pets. I want to be sure to keep their precious pictures safe on acid free paper so nothing happens to them. I haven't been able to finish Leroy's yet and he passed two years ago next month. I will soon finish it though and be so glad to have them to look at and remember by big boy by.

I bet he and Angus have met each other and get along great even if Leroy is a cat!

Thanks for sharing Angus' precious pictures with us.

[K9soul]

Anna, thank you for sharing those beautiful pics of your angel with us. I won't claim I know exactly how it is, because I think it is a bit different for everyone, but I do understand your pain so very well. I think the first year is the hardest.. but for me there are always times here and there even now when I feel a sharp stab of grief still. And I do miss both Cody and Willie so very much, but Willie was the hardest on me because he was my soul dog, we had a heart-to-heart connection that was especially close. It sounds like that is what you and Mark had with Angus too.

I sometimes play the song "My Heart Will Go On" and think of Will because the words somehow seem to really be what I feel for him, especially because I still dream of him so often.

I do think it is very healing to share your thoughts, feelings and pictures of your boy. He was a special one of a kind sweetheart, and he is and always will be a part of you and Mark. He also stole the hearts here at PT and will live on in each of us as well.

[trayi52]

Thanks for sharing, Anna. All I can do is sat here and look at the pictures and cry. Angus has certainly left a hole in all of our hearts.

Willie

[jazzcat]

What wonderful pictures. Thank you for sharing just how special Angus is. I know you all miss him terribly as do many of us here.

[GraciesMommy]

I can understand what you are going through, totally. It will be one year on Halloween that my Mercedes went to the bridge. One whole year..still hard to believe. I had her for 16 years...she saw me thru a divorce, a remarriage, a move away from my family (500 miles) a new job, the list goes on..she helped raise my 2 kids..but she was MY baby. I wish I could tell you the pain will go away, it won't. It may get easier but you will always have that hole in your heart. I have another baby now, Gracie...and I got her 9 months to the day of Mercedes leaving me...and I love her to bits, and she isn't a replacement..she is another kid to me...
Mercedes was a mini schauzer...perfect in every way. Easy to travel with, seemed to know what was on my mind. Totally devoted..gosh, it makes me tear up when I think of her. And I think of her every single day. I don't know how many times I have called Gracie "Mercedes" and so has my husband. I have a lot of little schauzer statues and stuffed animals and they are all put away. Gracie doesn't use her old bowls or toys. Those were hers and hers alone. I have pictures hanging up of my kids and Mercedes that were taking professionally.
I will make new memories with gracie and love her unconditionally but there will always be a void that only my mercy could fill...

Hang on to your precious memories of Angus...

[Aspen and Misty]

I can't beleave it's been a whole month, it seems like just yesterday this sweet baby boy went to the rainbow bridge.

I was litening to this song while reading your post and I just thought how perfect......

Who can say for certain? Maybe you're still here. I feel you all around me, your memory's so clear. Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak. You're still an inspiration Can it be?
That you are my forever love and you are watching over me from up above.
As my heart holds you just one beat away, I cherish all you gave me everyday 'Cause you are my forever love watching me from up above. And I believe that angels breathe and that love will live on and never leave. Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star. I wish upon tonight to see you smile, if only for awhile to know you're there, a breath away's not far to where you are.

You can Listen to the whole song here
http://search.launch.yahoo.com/search/lsearch/video?p=Josh+Groban

The song is called "To Where You Are" just click on that and a video comes up.

The rest of the Lyrics can be read here
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/joshgroban/towhereyouare.html

I'm so sorry Anna and Mark. Loosing a child is the worst pain you will ever go through, and it does get a little easier as time goes on, it's just so hard to get there though ::hugs::

I'm always here for you, wether it be tomrrow, a week from now, 2 months from now or a year from now. I am willing to listen, always.

Ashley

[caseysmom]

I am at work right now and crying...what a touching tribute to your sweet boy.

[kingrattus]

Anna I share ur pain, I know just how much u loved that big guy. I found it hard to putting Max's things away & it was worse when I found pictures of him that I never knew I had. One way to help shake the pain is to make a Scrap Book.

Have u started a Scrap Book yet?

If ur scared to damage real photos, scan them onto the computer & print them off. I plan on redoing Max's Scrap Book & scaning his real photos & printing them off so I can cut them into diff shapes & do different things to them.

I also want to make a collage & put it on a nice frame & hang it on my wall.

I made a little memorial ontop of my computer monitor. I used my real black lab stuffies & I have the biggest one holding his last fav toy. Mr. Frog.

I hope the girls and u & Mark start feeling better soon. Before u know it, u'll be blabing away about Angus & it wont hurt as much. & crying is a good thing, it shows u truely loved him :)

He's still watching over u & he will always love & miss u all, until u all join him in the far far future.


HUGZ from me & the critters

[dukedogsmom]

Scrapbook is a great idea! I've just gotten into that and I go to a once a month scrapbook party. I've got a few things I can bring with me and I can help you, if you want. Just get copies of some photos you want to do and we'll go from there. You have a Michael's store there? They've got lots of great craft stuff. If you buy an album, be sure it's 12 x 12. That's what most of the papers are sized. Of course, they can always be cut down.

[DogLover9501]

Oh Anna!

I can't believe it has been a month already!

I am at a bit of loss for words, as I am feeling so many mixed emotions, being excited about my news(a new kitty soon), and also being sad about this :(

I know that Angus was like a son, and you and Mark treated him just as good(probably better) than some people treat their children!

I too miss that big guy so much and I didn't even meet him! He has definatly left permanent pawprints in all of our hearts!

I cherrish the bandana of his that you sent me a while ago, and although I know that my dream of meeting him will never come true, I still feel like I knew him and love him as if he were my own.

Those pictures were so nice to see again, I have looked through his albums a few times in the past month, it really helps when I am missing his handsome face.

Here are some BIG {{{{{HUGS}}}}}, Anna!

Also I am just a PM away!

[jenluckenbach]

The memories you have will NEVER die. Thank you for sharing them with us. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

[slick]

Anna, now I'm a blubbering idiot! What a beautiul tribute to sweet Angus. I'm sure he's looking down and wiggling with delight. Thanks for posting all those wonderful pictures. What is handsome boy he was.

[tatsxxx11]

I too can't believe it's been a month. It's still so hard for me to look at his precious photos without crying; I can only imagine how difficult it is for you and Mark and the girls. It's been 6 years since I lost my heart dog Jingles and I still cry, still grieve, still long for her to be here beside me. The first year is the hardest; each first occasion, holiday, birthday without her or him. We all share in your grief Anna and if we could, we would bring him home to you again. Oh what a beautiful boy he was Anna. You only have to look into those beautiful brown eyes, to see the incredible love that lived in his heart for his mom and dad, his fur sisters. Many of the photos you posted were new to me and though they made me cry and cry, it felt so good to feel so close to him once more. Whenever I see a doggie in a bandana, I'll always think of Angus. As Logan said, I'm so glad that so many Pet Talkers were able to meet Angus and share with him, all of our love. You know Anna, Angus IS looking over you and Mark and the girls from the Bridge and one day, you will be together again. We love you Anna. {{{HUGS}}} Sandra, Cody and Star.

[KYS]

Beautiful pictures. Sweet handsome Angus will be in all our hearts forever and ever.

(((^..^)))

Karen

[*LabLoverKEB*]

((((((((BIG HUGS))))))) We love you Angus!!!

[shutterbug0303]

wow...all I can do is wipe the tears. I've only been here a few days but with all the heartfelt posts from everyone, I feel like I've known Angus as long as everyone else! The photos of your baby are beautiful...what a blessing to have them to look back on and remember what a great boy he was! I have not lost a dog like that before, and dread when Chloe will be gone from my side...but I can related to my dad. It is so hard to loose anyone ~ dog, cat, family member, or relative. And as the old saying goes, you don't realize how much you need them until they are not there anymore. Although that is not entirely true, a new light is always seen without that special someone next to you. I am earnestly praying for you and your family. Healing will come, but there will always be a scar. May God (funny how that is Dog backwards...?!?!?) be with you <><

><> prayers <>< and {{{hugs}}}

Judy, Chloe, and the gang

[Kfamr]

Anna,
I wish I could find words that would heal your & Mark pain but I know there's no possible way.
I thank you for allowing me to be there.. and to see your handsome man again.
I'm not sure who enjoyed that can of dog food more... him or I.
Nala will forever thank him for allowing her to rest her head on his cute little bum. ;)

He truely is the epitome of Rotties.
It has not seem like it's been a month to me, but i'm sure it's been a long and hard month for you, Mark, and the girls.

Call me fruity but I can still play back each and every moment in your house in my mind. I can still remember the smell and all.



Hugs to you, Mark, and the girls. Tell that Roxey sweetheart that she's completely won me over.

[dukedogsmom]

Ok. I'm at home now and here are some of my favorite recent pics. I am so sad at never getting to hug that sweet boy. This first one is Angus with his favorite red ball. This was after he had come home from being sick. I was so happy that day. This is the one I had considered having Amy draw, just without the bandage on his leg.
http://www.boomspeed.com/dukedogsmom/angusball.jpg
I love this one.
http://www.boomspeed.com/dukedogsmom/angus2.jpg
This is so sweet.
http://www.boomspeed.com/dukedogsmom/angus3.jpg
This last one is my most favorite of all. Have you ever seen happier dog? This makes me happy because he had been enjoying some treats I had picked out for all the dogs. Hugs from miles away. I guess the reason we all feel that he was our dog is that you were generous enough to share him with us. I can't say anymore. Too many tears. This is how I choose to remember him.
http://www.boomspeed.com/dukedogsmom/angusgiftswap.jpg

[Kona & Oreo's mom]

This is a wonderful tribute to your sweet boy. I hope that you find comfort in knowing that he touched so many of our lives!

[RobiLee]

A month...I'm at a loss for words. Another difficult day. One of many "Firsts". You know I'm here, Anna. I'm holding your hand right now. Can you feel me squeeze it? Such loving words you wrote. Oh my, those pictures! I love them. I'm so glad you posted some of them. I know for me it makes me feel a bit better to see him. He makes me smile. Val is right when she said you were so generous to share him with us. I told you that you brought him to life for everyone with all of your wonderful stories and beautiful pics of him. That big boy was so loved. He carries all that love with him now and keeps watch over you, Mark and the girls.

I hope you don't mind if I post one of my personal favorites of him. I'm sure you know which one it is ;)
http://photothru.com/photo_filedb1/A5/F4/FF/A5F4FF/viewable/A5F4FF_131CC6134043_3.jpg

I am so lucky to have this picture! It sits on my end table in the living room and when I came home today I picked it up and said hi and gave him a kiss.

{{{HUGS}}} for you and the family, Anna.

Love, Robin

[4 Dog Mother]

What a beautiful tribute to Angus that you have shared with us, Anna. So many have come to love Angus through your stories and pictures. It is great that you have now shared more pictures and your feelings about losing him. You and Mark have shown so many of us what it is to allow a pet to become a true member of your family Thanks for sharing your big boy with the rest of us. Diana

[captain]

Anna,

You know how much I miss him too, and I cannot believe it has been a month already.

Love you, love Mark, and those girls.

Michelle

[heinz57_79]

A month already? Doesn't seem like it. I know in a lot of ways I'm still a newbie here, but Angus really touched my heart. His puppy pictures remind of my own sweet Arthur. And I can only hope that he grows up to be just as handsome as Angus. That big, sweet boy will always be one of my favourite pups on here, and he will remain in my heart surrounded by fond memories of all the stories youv'e told, and pictures you've posted.

Blessings!

[RubyMutt]

Thank you for sharing your words and photos with us, Anna. I hope it helped you, at least a little.

I don't even know what to say. Your posts brought tears to my eyes. I always loved Angus, and I never even met him. I still miss my RB girl, Muffy, and it's been 4 years since she passed now :( I hope she, like I'm sure Angus is for you, Mark, & your girls, looking over me from the RB.

(((HUGS)))

I miss you, Angus :(

[wolf_Q]

Oh Anna, this is such a beautiful tribute. I enjoyed seeing these photos. We all loved him and we all miss him. :(

[shais_mom]

{{{Hugs to Mark, Anna, Huney, and Roxy}}}
My heart aches for you. I know you miss your little boy everyday.
While I didn't know him well, I miss him too b/c he was such a wonderful boy. The love that you and Mark had with him will never be replaced, a new love may grow and bloom anew. I certainly don't love Keegan the way I loved Shaianne and I don't love my kitties like I love my dogs, but I love them all the same. Keegan and I have a bond unlike Shaianne and I did but it is precious just the same. Same with my kitties.
If you need anything please know I am only a pm/email/phone call away.
love
Staci

[mugsy]

Anna, thank you for taking your heart and soul and showing us Angus' life. He truly was a special special boy. Always remember the good times. I know how hard it is, I still cry over all of ours that were lost either to the Bridge or re-homing.

I'm sure he's at the Bridge, with all of ours having the best time ever.

Angus, you are missed! Please know that you and Mark are in the Kendall's thoughts.

[Rachel]

Anna, thank you for sharing your feelings and these pictures of Angus. Many of us know what you are going through and some of those heartaches will always be there under the surface, no matter how many years have passed. Fortunately they do tend to go deeper inside only to surface upon a poignant reminder.

Sometimes we have to make a conscious effort to let your heart heal. Take the time to grieve and then tuck the grief deep down inside and leave it there until the next time you are ready to bring it out again. This routine helped me when I lost my two RB girls, Bailey and Tizzie.

The words people have written here about Angus are an honor to him. He is a dog that has touched so many of us. We have known him through you, and we are forever thankful that you have shared your boy with us. That is why we miss and grieve for him too.

[Cookiebaker]

My heart aches for you, Anna. Thank you for sharing your precious pictures. I enjoyed looking at them so much. I wish I had gotten to know him, he was such a gentle giant.

{{Hugs}}

[delidog]

Oh Anna!!!
What a Beautiful Tribute...I am Wiping away tears as I view all The Beautiful pics!!!!
My Heart goes out to you & mark...I have been where you are....
As others have said...Angus Will Always Occupy a Very Special Place in your heart...That Spot is His and His alone....
Glad that you have so many Great Pics....

Big Hugs for You,Mark,Roxey & Huney!!!

[BitsyNaceyDog]

I can hardly believe that it has been a month. I loved seeing all his pictures. Puppy all the way to adult, they are wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing them.

[DoggiesAreTheBest]

Anna those pictures are fabulous. Angus's smile always make my heart smile!

[ChrisH]

Oh, Anna, my heart goes out to you and Mark. {{big hugs}}

Thank you for sharing those pictures with us. It is so good to see that gorgeous Angus smile, even if it does make me cry. {{more hugs}}

Miss you so, dear Angus.

[puppyluvs]

Oh Anna,
I just saw this thread and oh my I am at a lose for words myself, thank you so much for sharing this with us. They are some awesome photos. And I agree with ChrisH It is so good to see that gorgeous Angus smile, even if it does make me cry. Thank you so much for sharing.

Play Hard Angus !