wolfsoul
07-17-2003, 12:33 AM
My dad called my mom today to talk to her about money, and I picked up the phone. So naturally, we talked.
I haven't been to my dad's house for a sleepover since last October. I haven't talked to him since January.
When I left, he got a puppy, who I called mine for a while. Some of you might remember me talking about this pup. I also left behind a rat, and he got another after I left. There were also 2 cats. So I really miss the animals, as I've only gotten to see the puppy from being at my dad's neighbor's house, and I haven't even seen the new rat.
But I told myself I wouldn't go back after what he did to Leather. I left her behind for a while too, but when I heard of what was happening, I went over there and snatched her from the yard. He didn't care. Him and his gf were in the window looking at me and talking. They didn't stop me.
Now, after all this time of not even talking to him, God only knows what going on in his house, the only communication going on being between his gf and I emailing, and I have to go shopping with him. After that, I'll probably have to go to his house. Maybe he'll ask me to sleepover. And maybe I will. But is this what I want? I don't even know what I want anymore....
He left me for that long...He has all my stuff...he has all my stepmom's (his ex's) stuff...He illegally drove her car...He gave my room to his gf's kids (Which I don't mind, but it would have been nice to ask...Alot of my stuff is trashed now)...And I'm not hearing good things...Like drug things, and other not-so-good things..
I'm not mad at him, but I was...He's like me in too many ways. I hate that about him. I know why he never called. He put it off, and after a while, he thinks it's too late to call because I'd be mad. So I have no reason to forgive him if i'm not mad at him anymore..Except for what he did to Leather...I'll never forgive him for that..
I don't even know what i'm raving about...I'm just so confused. Should things go back to the way they were before? Or should they be like now -- us not talking. Him in his own world - Me in mine. I don't want to sleepover at his house and leave my rats alone. But I want to get to know the puppy and see the new rat...I'd like to see his gf, and her kids, because they are all very nice. But I don't want to be a burden. He has too many money issues to worry about me...
sorry to vent. I don't know what I'm asking for....I just needed to tell someone...
I haven't been to my dad's house for a sleepover since last October. I haven't talked to him since January.
When I left, he got a puppy, who I called mine for a while. Some of you might remember me talking about this pup. I also left behind a rat, and he got another after I left. There were also 2 cats. So I really miss the animals, as I've only gotten to see the puppy from being at my dad's neighbor's house, and I haven't even seen the new rat.
But I told myself I wouldn't go back after what he did to Leather. I left her behind for a while too, but when I heard of what was happening, I went over there and snatched her from the yard. He didn't care. Him and his gf were in the window looking at me and talking. They didn't stop me.
Now, after all this time of not even talking to him, God only knows what going on in his house, the only communication going on being between his gf and I emailing, and I have to go shopping with him. After that, I'll probably have to go to his house. Maybe he'll ask me to sleepover. And maybe I will. But is this what I want? I don't even know what I want anymore....
He left me for that long...He has all my stuff...he has all my stepmom's (his ex's) stuff...He illegally drove her car...He gave my room to his gf's kids (Which I don't mind, but it would have been nice to ask...Alot of my stuff is trashed now)...And I'm not hearing good things...Like drug things, and other not-so-good things..
I'm not mad at him, but I was...He's like me in too many ways. I hate that about him. I know why he never called. He put it off, and after a while, he thinks it's too late to call because I'd be mad. So I have no reason to forgive him if i'm not mad at him anymore..Except for what he did to Leather...I'll never forgive him for that..
I don't even know what i'm raving about...I'm just so confused. Should things go back to the way they were before? Or should they be like now -- us not talking. Him in his own world - Me in mine. I don't want to sleepover at his house and leave my rats alone. But I want to get to know the puppy and see the new rat...I'd like to see his gf, and her kids, because they are all very nice. But I don't want to be a burden. He has too many money issues to worry about me...
sorry to vent. I don't know what I'm asking for....I just needed to tell someone...