Scorpio
05-13-2010, 10:43 AM
Sorry to have been absent for so long. I've been hiding. Dealing with a moral dilemma.
I have never really cared for morals. That external standard which people use to define themselves as good, and others as falling short of the requirements for society's rubber stamp. Bigotry, superficiality and hypocrisy are the characteristics of the outwardly pure.
My little cat is having kittens. Yes, I know she should have been spayed. Yes, I am aware of the surplus kitten problem. But 2/3 of our month's budget was simply not affordable when it came to the crunch.
Unplanned pregnancy. Our little girl the shame of the neighbourhood.
We have lived through a lot, and through it all our cats and our kids have had love, if not birthday presents. Big Boy's last operation took the money we had saved for the electricity bill. By the time the kittens are born, we will be able to afford to get her fixed, but for now, rent and food has to be a priority.
I have spent so much time feeling guilty about this. The stern voice of the moral majority comes through loud and clear.
No time for guilt now. It is spring, nature is unfolding itself, and I have never felt so close to it.
If she could give birth while I held her in my arms, I would. Right now, it's me and my beautiful cat, one of God's real works of art, and one of his miracles is coming.
I have never really cared for morals. That external standard which people use to define themselves as good, and others as falling short of the requirements for society's rubber stamp. Bigotry, superficiality and hypocrisy are the characteristics of the outwardly pure.
My little cat is having kittens. Yes, I know she should have been spayed. Yes, I am aware of the surplus kitten problem. But 2/3 of our month's budget was simply not affordable when it came to the crunch.
Unplanned pregnancy. Our little girl the shame of the neighbourhood.
We have lived through a lot, and through it all our cats and our kids have had love, if not birthday presents. Big Boy's last operation took the money we had saved for the electricity bill. By the time the kittens are born, we will be able to afford to get her fixed, but for now, rent and food has to be a priority.
I have spent so much time feeling guilty about this. The stern voice of the moral majority comes through loud and clear.
No time for guilt now. It is spring, nature is unfolding itself, and I have never felt so close to it.
If she could give birth while I held her in my arms, I would. Right now, it's me and my beautiful cat, one of God's real works of art, and one of his miracles is coming.