Two months, too long.

[Kfamr]

Today marks two months since my best friend, Nicole, passed away. A few friends and I will be going to "her" park again, pouring out two diet cokes, and lighting a candle. Two months.

Two months seems like such a short amount of time in books. Two months seems like such a short amount of time to wait for a cool show you want to go to or something you've been waiting for. Two months seems like an eternity when your best friend was taken away.


"I still can't believe you're gone" is exactly correct, thank you Puff Daddy. There's still those days where I think I can just call you and you'd be here within seconds like you always were. There's still those days where I think I can go hang out with you, at Super Wal-Mart, at 1am. I haven't been to Super Wal-Mart in two months compared to what... everyday? You used to call me up and asked if I wanted to hang out. I quit asking where we were going/what we were doing because I knew we were going to Super Wal-Mart, atleast once in our adventure. If not, something was wrong, and it generally included picking up @$$hole.



Ya, @$$hole. At first I was siding with him and felt badly for him. It's cool, Mia still needs to know who her sperm donor was, but I refuse to call him a dad. He's not a dad. I think it was that boyfriend of your mother's who said something like "Anyone can be a father, but it takes a man to be dad." TRUE THAT. I do know you wanted Mia to know her father and I truly hope he attempts to be a part of her life. It just goes to show how amazing you were, as you were able to look past how sh!tty he is. You found good in anyone.


Nicole, I know you're watching Mia grow up but I just want to tell you how amazing she is. Seriously. She is the most perfect, beautiful baby I've ever laid eyes on. She's so pretty and looks just like you. You were a beautiful person and I'm so glad she's taken after you. I'm sure she'll be just as amazing. She has so much love surrounding her and I know you're so proud of that.


I spent time with her yesterday, fed her, changed her, loved her. She is amazing. I love you and I love her. I'm so glad she is here, a part of you. She's all we have left of you, besides beautiful memories. She is here for a reason and that reason is to keep your spirit alive. I think her being here has made losing you a tiny bit easier, if possible.


I love you Nicole and thank you.
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[beeniesmom]

I'm so sorry.
Renewed condolences for the loss of your friend.
It's so sad that Mia will never remember her momma.
She is lucky to have you in her life.
She will get to know her mom through you and all the people around her, who loved Nicole.
Again, I am so sorry.

[Zippy]

I am so sorry about Nicole.I know how it is to lose someone you love.I know though that she was blessed to have a friend like you.Who loves and cares about her and her daughter.I pray the happy memories of you and Nicole will bring you comfort.

[Karen]

Such a beauty she is, Miss Mia! Give her an extra kiss just for me. Some day, when she's old enough to understand, you'll tell her about her mom, and about how she made your life better just by being the sweet person she was. And how, by bringing Mia into the world, she left it a far brighter place than she found it.

[lizbud]

Mia is such a beautiful baby. Her mom must have been a wonderful friend
and I'm so sorry for your loss.:(

[Medusa]

Looking at Mia's beautiful face must be bittersweet for you. I'm so sorry for your pain and wish we could turn back time. Prayers going up for you that your heart will heal.

[caseysmom]

Kay it is so sad about your friend, her daughter is beautiful. How awful not to live to see your child grow up how terribly sad for everyone. You will keep her memory alive with her daughter I know you will.

[DJFyrewolf36]

*HUGS* to you. Mia is blessed to have you in her life and you are blessed to have her. You are a true friend.

My condolences :(

[K9karen]

Mia is gorgeous. And I totally agree that she's lucky to have you in her life. I guess Nichole's family is caring for her? By seeing Mia's happy, sweet face, it looks like she's incredibly loved. She's going to love hearing about her mommy and your awesome friendship.

Please accept my deepest sympathies. Life can be so cruel and unfair. I truly feel your anguish. I've had a best friend for 52 years and I don't know how I'd cope if I lost her. She's more than a sister to me, as Nichole was to you.

I hope you can feel my hugs.

[AdoreMyDogs]

I'm so sorry. Mia really is a beautiful child and a real blessing.

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Looking at Mia's beautiful face must be bittersweet for you .


That is so true...!
Mia is such a cutie:)

What happened to Mia's mummy? Sorry if I didn't see a thread about her...:o

[Cataholic]

It is just such a sad thought that Mia will never know her mom, that you lot your best friend, and Nicole's life was simply way too short. Thinking of you.

[Cincy'sMom]

Mia is beautiful. My thoughts are with you.