Crazy-Cat-Lover
01-21-2008, 06:05 PM
It has taken me quite a while to post this as I have been very upset about Buddys passing. About 2 weeks before Christmas, we came home to find Buddy had passed away. I left to my Moms in the afternoon and Buddy seemed fine. DH came home from work and let him out to potty and fed and watered him. He said Buddy ate and drank, and went to the bathroom just fine. He was throwing up for a couple days before he died, but we just thought it was from the raw meat we gave him. He had been having small seizures, maybe one each month. Nothing serious, just really short seizures. We were told by his previous owner that he was around 5-6 years old, but we think he was more than likely over 10.
I am almost certain he had a massive seizure, just by the way we found him - which I won't describe. We didn't want to have an autopsy done, what would be the point. We believe that the only reason our friend gave us Buddy was because he had a health condition, because he called and told us that he had to mail his vet records ASAP. It sounded like he wanted us to know what was wrong with Buddy. The week before he died, he started peeing all over the place, but he has always had accidents in the apartment - just never this frequent. We just figured that was a behavioural issue.
I guess we just never wanted to believe that Buddy was dying. And we both feel terrible about it. But I truly believe, the vet would have put him to sleep. We have just not had any luck with dogs - EVER - so that was the last dog we will have for a very long time, if ever. My oldest daughter saw Buddy laying there, and explaining it to her was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I had to tell her the truth though, as she took one look at him and knew he was dead.
I have never had one of my own dogs pass away, and now I know what people go through when they lose their best friend. I can now truly say "I know how you feel".
I have been very hard on myself and my Hubby over this. It has lead to some really nasty fights and arguments. I suffer from depression, and this made it 10 times worse. I couldn't get to sleep at night, and I took out all my emotional stress on Tim. He was just as upset as me, but I always fail to see that. I blamed it on him, of course - when it was nobodys fault. He still feels like a bag of crap thanks to me. It got to the point that Tim actually had to walk out of the apartment to get away from me. Who knew a dog could almost end a marriage?
R.I.P Buddy, you will be missed by all who knew you. I am sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me.
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Crazy-Cat-Lover/Buddy%20July%202007/2007_06300014.jpg
I am almost certain he had a massive seizure, just by the way we found him - which I won't describe. We didn't want to have an autopsy done, what would be the point. We believe that the only reason our friend gave us Buddy was because he had a health condition, because he called and told us that he had to mail his vet records ASAP. It sounded like he wanted us to know what was wrong with Buddy. The week before he died, he started peeing all over the place, but he has always had accidents in the apartment - just never this frequent. We just figured that was a behavioural issue.
I guess we just never wanted to believe that Buddy was dying. And we both feel terrible about it. But I truly believe, the vet would have put him to sleep. We have just not had any luck with dogs - EVER - so that was the last dog we will have for a very long time, if ever. My oldest daughter saw Buddy laying there, and explaining it to her was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I had to tell her the truth though, as she took one look at him and knew he was dead.
I have never had one of my own dogs pass away, and now I know what people go through when they lose their best friend. I can now truly say "I know how you feel".
I have been very hard on myself and my Hubby over this. It has lead to some really nasty fights and arguments. I suffer from depression, and this made it 10 times worse. I couldn't get to sleep at night, and I took out all my emotional stress on Tim. He was just as upset as me, but I always fail to see that. I blamed it on him, of course - when it was nobodys fault. He still feels like a bag of crap thanks to me. It got to the point that Tim actually had to walk out of the apartment to get away from me. Who knew a dog could almost end a marriage?
R.I.P Buddy, you will be missed by all who knew you. I am sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me.
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Crazy-Cat-Lover/Buddy%20July%202007/2007_06300014.jpg