Donnaj4962
05-24-2007, 12:58 PM
When I got home from work last night, I had a message from my "ex" who asked me to call him because he had some "news". Since I hadn't spoken to him in over 5 years.... I was shaken to hear his voice, and then knew that it must be a death in the family. So I took a deep breath and called him. His cousin (I think he would be about 23 now) committed suicide and he wanted to let me know. I was so shocked. The cousin was the ring bearer for our wedding, so the news conjured up all kinds of emotions. Why? How awful were things to take such a drastic measure? Oh, his poor parents and sisters. And then of course, having been asked to please attend the funeral and/or showing, I started realizing that I would have to see my "ex" and his family, and how would that go? I did ask him to be certain that my attendance would be okay with everyone, and not cause more tension and emotions for everyone. The last thing I would want to do is create more ill feelings. (I am planning to attend the showing only, as I don't feel comfortable going to the funeral since that is typically for "family".)
Oddly enough, this weekend is the 7 year anniversary of the day that I packed my things and left! And now I will be seeing the "ex" and his family again. Please know that I truly adore my ex's brothers and their families, as well as his grandparents and his dad. His mom, is controlling... and while she tries to be nice, I am always on guard that there is hidden meaning behind every word and action! Hmmmm, like mother, like son.
So.... prayers please for a young life that gave up too soon. And prayers for strength for the family. And if you could spare a prayer for me, I would appreciate strength to get through this terrible ordeal. No news on the arrangements yet.... I should hear something yet today. Thank you all for listening to me go on and on. Sorry for that!
Oddly enough, this weekend is the 7 year anniversary of the day that I packed my things and left! And now I will be seeing the "ex" and his family again. Please know that I truly adore my ex's brothers and their families, as well as his grandparents and his dad. His mom, is controlling... and while she tries to be nice, I am always on guard that there is hidden meaning behind every word and action! Hmmmm, like mother, like son.
So.... prayers please for a young life that gave up too soon. And prayers for strength for the family. And if you could spare a prayer for me, I would appreciate strength to get through this terrible ordeal. No news on the arrangements yet.... I should hear something yet today. Thank you all for listening to me go on and on. Sorry for that!